tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-72418015816270165372024-02-08T00:48:19.712+07:00WELCOME TO MY NAKED KITCHEN!....where everyone is invited to watch how I juggle with all of the ingredients.
It reveals riddle thoughts of what may be a soliloquy, a nonfiction, or something in between.
With a bowl of plain episodes from my daily life, a handful of my private insights on spirituality and a pinch of music spices.
When it's done, you are welcome to have a free taste of whatever it is on the serving table.Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.comBlogger85125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-36254538844957570992009-11-23T22:17:00.003+07:002009-11-23T22:31:21.247+07:00LANGUISHING<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLPOScgg7ByDC9OcIzDqB7Fj174fl5gT3cMEaqT4rZwF4vJai0jiOut1BnKd7OqePxQjfyXIAtVxfHDpTLWZmn49daigxO2BoPeofDDhKz7w_SCAYbqKJUi_xUAFNH4rcd9HF1IpvuK9ou/s1600/linguishing.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLPOScgg7ByDC9OcIzDqB7Fj174fl5gT3cMEaqT4rZwF4vJai0jiOut1BnKd7OqePxQjfyXIAtVxfHDpTLWZmn49daigxO2BoPeofDDhKz7w_SCAYbqKJUi_xUAFNH4rcd9HF1IpvuK9ou/s400/linguishing.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5407321618242727490" border="0" /></a><br /><br />If you could only see<br />That I was not put here for you<br />To judge me and dispute my inner most truth<br /><br />And after all these years of enmity, envy and tears<br />It's a shame you don't know me at all<br /><br />I was wondering<br />Would you cry for me?<br />If I told you that I couldn't breathe<br />If I was drowning, suffocating<br /><br />Those ancient buried recollections<br />We transform them and select them<br />You have yours, I have mine<br />That's fine<br /><br />While we're too torn to heal<br />Our stitch has never disappeared<br />I have mine, you have yours<br />I'm sure<br /><br />I was wondering<br />Would you reach for me?<br />If you saw that I was languishingRose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-47699041290442043952009-07-26T01:54:00.000+07:002009-07-27T02:20:36.408+07:00lost in translation<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhq1ynF2fb7H5n6qhO7WbCOye8RINQdn77nj4qTExSIg4ryAy_gXj5lOrsvaFUhaL9TMsGcANIvCnwmCW-wvO23ZZnWTDRXQNVLPp7qSB1QO3yRLQKLlxguMXpQoAlNhmetlY7NbEuJzJ3Z/s1600-h/sad+ending.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5362850432764824002" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 268px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhq1ynF2fb7H5n6qhO7WbCOye8RINQdn77nj4qTExSIg4ryAy_gXj5lOrsvaFUhaL9TMsGcANIvCnwmCW-wvO23ZZnWTDRXQNVLPp7qSB1QO3yRLQKLlxguMXpQoAlNhmetlY7NbEuJzJ3Z/s400/sad+ending.jpg" border="0" /></a> <span style="font-size:85%;"><strong>Currently listening to: Tony Rich Project - Nobody knows it but me</strong><br /></span><br /><br /><div></div><div><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ff0000;"><strong>Je t'aime un peu, </strong></span><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ff0000;"><strong>beaucoup, </strong></span><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ff0000;"><strong>passionnement, </strong></span><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ff0000;"><strong>a la folie, pas du tout !</strong></span></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-73502570023141391212009-07-25T11:30:00.004+07:002009-07-25T12:29:28.059+07:00Bila....<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHYuGuJcow7gLtQ71LbycZZiLoyFTMqc-oXGKI5zI1yFqvsbaf4PDV3gLXYUzgrzt-q_RJQLQz8RYdoYcKtSzgnnV9ZHyFqj2rbUH2dvFtQrvkYRhsbf4I4z0AbhZPPAsHxfJOOyYvbbpQ/s1600-h/dream+little+dream.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5362262627843520226" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 267px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHYuGuJcow7gLtQ71LbycZZiLoyFTMqc-oXGKI5zI1yFqvsbaf4PDV3gLXYUzgrzt-q_RJQLQz8RYdoYcKtSzgnnV9ZHyFqj2rbUH2dvFtQrvkYRhsbf4I4z0AbhZPPAsHxfJOOyYvbbpQ/s400/dream+little+dream.jpg" border="0" /></a><strong>Currently listening to: Janis Joplin - Cry Baby</strong><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Bila suatu saat kau terjaga dari tidurmu</div><div>mungkin ku tak lebih dari betina pemuas angan-angan bocahmu</div><div>kuncup pertama titik awal semua berahimu</div><br /><div></div><div>Bila kau terbangun nanti</div><div>milikiku mungkin tak pernah jadi bagian mimpi, apalagi obsesimu</div><div>geliatku...riakku...dan getarku pun</div><div>mungkin hanya kau pandang jemu</div><div></div><br /><div>Bila kau tersadar nanti</div><div>kau pun tak pernah inginkanku</div><div>jadi pucuk semua cikalmu</div><div>perempuan pertama yang kau jemput dari malam basahmu</div><br /><div></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-45511559225890369702009-07-24T02:00:00.000+07:002009-07-25T11:29:47.517+07:00F Y I,<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjV0ZXkItVFyP5gCipsXPn_DYu7p62KV5maCitTByAY3ylcT7UX_SRi7po2sDDPByXn6rdr7PJBtgaZkhxaAAbtyEhAYLaW0jxQGnKENfL9MDuf5WKZbsrnnKSSm8IXB4fajjyGrchQ9iJ4/s1600-h/dreaming.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5362107868090300546" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjV0ZXkItVFyP5gCipsXPn_DYu7p62KV5maCitTByAY3ylcT7UX_SRi7po2sDDPByXn6rdr7PJBtgaZkhxaAAbtyEhAYLaW0jxQGnKENfL9MDuf5WKZbsrnnKSSm8IXB4fajjyGrchQ9iJ4/s400/dreaming.jpg" border="0" /></a> <strong>Currently listening to: Kelly Clarkson -Break away</strong><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Aku berani melepas semua mimpiku, demi kamu.</div><div>Tanpa kamu, apakah mimpi-mimpi itu masih ada artinya lagi?</div><div></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-84675425378100329512009-06-19T17:53:00.005+07:002009-06-19T18:16:31.970+07:00FRIDAY I'm... AJEP-AJEP...AJEP-AJEP....<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgakxgy3LrOTNfTgKGyn8-KI_SR5OwED4lsjMid8fZNVTtZ8KgWc00xcksTX9_PlqoicHepR62CnCdRJcHu0U1v1zde5oOlwN_ViU5n0L7if2nuQ6eYXdZga-wkaU_mxuEJ2nQbdw7UfGZW/s1600-h/never+enough.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348995523009230386" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgakxgy3LrOTNfTgKGyn8-KI_SR5OwED4lsjMid8fZNVTtZ8KgWc00xcksTX9_PlqoicHepR62CnCdRJcHu0U1v1zde5oOlwN_ViU5n0L7if2nuQ6eYXdZga-wkaU_mxuEJ2nQbdw7UfGZW/s400/never+enough.jpg" border="0" /></a> <span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:85%;"><strong>Currently listening to: Estelle feat Kanye West - American Boy</strong></span><br /><div><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></div><br /><div></div><br /><div><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></div><div>I don't know why my mood swings so unstablely today. I intend to be more sensitive.</div><div>Hmmm....maybe I'm about to get my period.</div><div></div><br /><div>Anyway, what's special today? </div><div></div><br /><div>One of my colleague is finally free from this Alctraz Prison (read: Aceh) after 4 years struggling in this prison. As she said, "Everything is beautiful in His time". I do believe now is the beautiful moment of her life. How can I say so? She get another assignment in different project but still under same umbrella (read: organisation) with higher grade. Another plus, the new duty station is in Medan (read: civilization). Ahhhh... you're so lucky girl, hey...you deserve it! </div><div>I'm so happy for you....</div><br /><div></div><div>Gosh, I think my mood is about to swing again.... ewww.... gimme my happy pills!</div><br /><div></div><br /><div><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:180%;"><strong>Desperately needs <span style="color:#ff0000;">AJEP-AJEP</span></strong></span></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-7508615223146932592009-06-18T09:40:00.008+07:002009-06-18T10:44:28.500+07:00Ada Apa Dengan Film Indonesia?!?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEik3OP7oHAB6PbnsuxR-CEws3JLVJUWyE1jnSLmuinlC3QZEkroylFilGV3nMsjYFxOkBSFA_QqtOufhX3aHe1cpaTH_PUtq2EkswJZHR8d_nr3qvobfzV4Z_qDOAYweV3ktEnvJD9QiG7M/s1600-h/Thinking+of+an+escape+plan.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348505254204107954" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 372px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEik3OP7oHAB6PbnsuxR-CEws3JLVJUWyE1jnSLmuinlC3QZEkroylFilGV3nMsjYFxOkBSFA_QqtOufhX3aHe1cpaTH_PUtq2EkswJZHR8d_nr3qvobfzV4Z_qDOAYweV3ktEnvJD9QiG7M/s400/Thinking+of+an+escape+plan.JPG" border="0" /></a><span style="font-size:85%;"> <strong><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Currently listening to: Black Eyed Peas - Boom Boom Pow</span></strong></span><br /><div align="justify"></div><br /><br /><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:georgia;"></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!</span></div><br /><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Buset. Lama banget ya nggak nulis lagi? </span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Sebenernya stok cerita banyak, apalagi temuan-temuan ajaib selama cuti sakit (baca: autis) di kost-an. Apa daya usia kurang mendukung. Jadilah begitu pulang kantor lebih sering langsung tidur dibanding <em>online</em> lagi. </span></div><br /><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">TAPI.... </span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Gini ya.</span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Kalo emang dasarnya punya naluri nyela, tidak sampai hati rasanya melihat hal-hal yang patut dicela untuk tidak dicela. </span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Semua berawal dari niat tulus mencari hiburan berupa film bioskop. Alih-alih dapet film bagus yang layak tonton, saya menemukan tiga film, LOKAL, yang judulnya cukup bombastis, yaitu </span><a href="http://www.21cineplex.com/mba-married-by-accident,movie,1984.htm" target="_self" rel="nofollow"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">ini</span></a><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">, </span><a href="http://www.21cineplex.com/merem-melek,movie,1980.htm" target="_self" rel="nofollow"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">itu</span></a><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">, dan yang paling fenomenal adalah </span><a href="http://www.21cineplex.com/mas-suka-mas-ukin-aja,movie,1974.htm" target="_self" rel="nofollow"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">yang ini</span></a><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">. Filmnya sih sudah tayang akhir tahun kemarin, tapi saya nggak akan sebut judulnya langsung. Keenakan dikasih promosi gratis.</span></div><br /><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Saya penasaran banget. Nggak tau kenapa, sejak film berjudul VIRGIN disanjung-sanjung (<em>which I really didn't understand why</em>), terlalu banyak film-film dengan tema seputar selangkangan dan otak mesum yang dibuat. TERLALU BANYAK, dan menurut saya agak keterlaluan ya. Coba kita <em>list down</em> beberapa ya : <span style="color:#ff0000;">Puber</span>, <span style="color:#ff0000;">Basssaaaah</span>, <span style="color:#ff0000;">XL</span>, <span style="color:#ff0000;">Kawin Kontrak</span> (2 seri), <span style="color:#ff0000;">ML</span> (yang saya syukuri gagal tayang, karena saya yakin nggak ada bagus-bagusnya), sampai <span style="color:#ff0000;">Kutunggu Jandamu</span>. Itu yang saya inget ya. Dan sekarang muncul tiga itu. Saya nggak akan kaget kalo film yang akan datang judulnya MENSTRUASI, EJAKULASI DINI atau SAAT MENOPAUSE MELANDA.</span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><br /><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Sampai sekarang saya nggak abis pikir lho. <span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong>Film-film ini beneran ADA yang nonton ya???</strong></span></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>Well</em>. Bukannya saya sok moralis ya. Lha wong ke gereja cuman kalo <em>weekdays</em> berikutnya ada <em>event</em> yang perlu didoakan biar lancar. Saya cuman lagi mikir..buset. Apa nggak bisa bikin film yang "bagusan" sedikit ya? Agak malu lho lewat bioskop, separoh dari jumlah teaternya isinya film lokal tapi kayak gini semua. Untung saya berdomisili di Serambi Mekkah (baca: tidak ada bioskop).</span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><br /><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Apa selera humor saya yang aneh sendiri? Nggak juga ah. Perasaan dulu jaman Warkop DKI jaya, kan temanya agak mirip, tapi masih bisa bikin saya ketawa ngakak. Judulnya kurang lacur apa coba : Kanan-Kiri OK, Maju Kena Mundur Kena, Makin Lama Makin Asyik, sampai Saya Suka Kamu Punya. Udah gitu pemain-pemainnya juga nggak kalah sintal dibanding yang sekarang (meskipun dulu harus dengan bonus ketek gondrong ya.....) </span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"></span></div><br /><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Kalo sekarang? Beuuuuuh. Ngelirik posternya pun ogah.</span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Apa sutradara-sutradara sekarang mau mengulang masa jaya Warkop dulu? </span><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"><em>Well</em>. Kalau itu tujuannya....selamat, anda GAGAL. </span></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-19406495315282913762009-06-10T17:26:00.006+07:002009-06-10T17:48:36.945+07:00Wanita VS Warkop<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizcCtuJE40b_FaPoLDdFMC4z3P1JQZfNdo0rs4KXp1ftMijx6hyphenhyphen3yAUTT47W51ohMHs5Q55WXzDzlNE6a2ar0I3ELijk7OyIPc6XOEC45C7poEBcGGWRs2mM2nyALoeE6W8kFrsIkRwQSv/s1600-h/sleepnot.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5345648115187333874" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 267px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizcCtuJE40b_FaPoLDdFMC4z3P1JQZfNdo0rs4KXp1ftMijx6hyphenhyphen3yAUTT47W51ohMHs5Q55WXzDzlNE6a2ar0I3ELijk7OyIPc6XOEC45C7poEBcGGWRs2mM2nyALoeE6W8kFrsIkRwQSv/s400/sleepnot.jpg" border="0" /></a> <strong>Currently listening to: Imogen Heap - Goodnight and Go</strong><br /><div><strong></strong></div><br /><div><strong></strong></div><br /><div><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">Apa yang <span style="color:#ff0000;">SALAH</span> dengan </span></strong><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">WANITA yang <span style="color:#ff0000;">SUKA NONGKRONG di WARKOP</span>?</span></strong></div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><div>Beneran deh.</div><br /><div>Saya mulai terganggu dengan pandangan orang-orang setiap kali saya nongkrong di warkop di atas pukul 10 malam. </div><div></div><br /><div>Saya kan nggak ada maksud buat menjaring Oom Oom Senang (baca: pria-hidung-belang-yang-haus-belaian-wanita). Jelas-jelas niat saya cuma mau menikmati segelas kopi sanger dingin ditemani pembicaraan hangat dari seorang atau beberapa teman baik yang <em>mostly</em> berjenis kelamin pria. </div><br /><div></div><div>Apa ada aturan main tak tertulis yang menggariskan warung kopi di atas pukul 10 malam hanya diperuntukkan sebagai tempat nongkrong pria? HARAM hukumnya bagi wanita seperti saya (baca: haus hiburan) untuk menjejakkan kakinya di tempat ini di jam-jam rawan tersebut. </div><br /><div></div><div>Apakah sesuatu yang tidak lazim di masyarakat seenaknya disebut tidak baik, tidak pantas, tidak normal, dan kejamnya lagi melanggar aturan (aturan yang mana?)</div><br /><div>Coba, adakah yang bisa memberikan penjelasan logisnya?</div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-83175196654639959712009-06-08T11:55:00.008+07:002009-06-08T18:19:29.998+07:00I DO LOVE MONDAY<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-jXhOX87ch4DsJR7FoOS4UyoY_fgGNWNrPm324BPrE9C0B6hg6cEKlVUmIP9yB_KRgZt0Ogf6JHesGAQ_JQGs4yz3H5ujigvUfQmzNM0oXiEgOL_IcVxGQY-f2bE0ruwab5Jxvd-QHL44/s1600-h/more+than+this.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5344893611263550930" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-jXhOX87ch4DsJR7FoOS4UyoY_fgGNWNrPm324BPrE9C0B6hg6cEKlVUmIP9yB_KRgZt0Ogf6JHesGAQ_JQGs4yz3H5ujigvUfQmzNM0oXiEgOL_IcVxGQY-f2bE0ruwab5Jxvd-QHL44/s400/more+than+this.jpg" border="0" /></a><strong>Currently listening to: Silverchair - Tomorrow</strong><br /><br />Sedikit kronologis hari Senin ini.<br /><br />Diawali dengan alarm ponsel yang sudah diset JAM 6.30 ( it's already early for me as I am not a morning person) SUBUH. Praying. Morning Devotion [baca: dengerin STENDJI di GMHR sambil bermalas-malasan di kasur). Mandi.<br /><br />Berangkat subuh-subuh (baca: 08:30 WIB) dengan kantung mata tebal yang mungkin bisa dipake nyimpen dompet. Nyampe kantor JAM SETENGAH SEMBILAN LEWAT TUJUH MENIT PAGI (secara tadi dianter ama valentino rossi, jd nyampenya cepet banged).<br />Menghadap Boss (minta boarding pass perjalanan dinas minggu lalu).<br /><br />Buka-buka komputer (nyiapin dokumen Travel Expense Claim si Boss) dengan mata seadanya.<br />Setengah jam kemudian minta tanda-tangan si Boss dan turun ke lantai 2 minta approval dari Ops Manager. Gosip-gosip bentar ama anak Operations, terus naik lagi ke lantai 3 (PP melewati 44 anak tangga, what an exercise... thanks Boss! Resep dietnya TOP BGT).<br /><br />Baru aja mau duduk, si Boss tiba-tiba memanggil, ternyata di ruangan ada Nenek Sihir menanyakan FAX dari partai-lokal-terbesar yang dikirim Jum'at lalu. Akhirnya nemu juga suratnya di kubangan fax masuk. Sepuluh menit kemudian...Abrakadabraa....Nenek Sihir menghilang (baca: pamit undur diri..siaran kali boo!)<br /><br />Lagi asyik-asyik update Stationery Report, eh tau-tau si Boss udah ada di depan mata.<br />Kali ini minta dibelikan shuttlecock merk GARUDA Budiono (aya kituh Boss? Bukannya Garuda Pancasila...akulah pendukungmu). Bergegas turun ke lantai 1 dan berdiri 1 menit di bawah terik matahari pukul 12 siang sambil menunggu mobil (baca: mengutuk global warming). Otw ke toko olahraga, agak kehibur ama CD yang diputer di mobil si abang. Nggak nyangka, selera musiknya "gw bgt"... Lumayan kehibur ama lagu-lagunya Silverchair.<br /><br />Sebelum pulang, melampiaskan makan pagi dan siang yang terlewat dengan menumpuk zat besi dan protein bersama seorang perempuan seumuran yang juga sedang jomblo.<br /><br />Dan sebuah pertanyaan kritis terlontar dari si perempuan:<br />"Eh. Pernah ngerasa nggak, kalo sebenernya orang seumur kita itu terlalu sibuk sampai nggak kepikir buat pacaran?"<br /><br />FINALLY!!<br />A GEWD EXCUSE OF BEING SINGLE!!!<br /><strong></strong><br /><br /><div align="justify"><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong></strong></span> </div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-57999653034162847792009-06-05T15:46:00.003+07:002009-06-05T17:18:58.233+07:00is it ever enough, when it's just enough?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6DGCS6iPBRWkr1zTg8Bb9LwBiu976l0cHimcDCZVWDdrLz8cBPVP5cOQT2LgJcUPgsBKuEWRRXDzJvOsV9EQwF2FjlTsJQWeb1214FbXFhitEzTqZkhA3NiJfpavBEoSKlfm53Tw0Il9_/s1600-h/_Love_Makes_aLL_More_ColorfuL.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5343785876082394754" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 319px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6DGCS6iPBRWkr1zTg8Bb9LwBiu976l0cHimcDCZVWDdrLz8cBPVP5cOQT2LgJcUPgsBKuEWRRXDzJvOsV9EQwF2FjlTsJQWeb1214FbXFhitEzTqZkhA3NiJfpavBEoSKlfm53Tw0Il9_/s400/_Love_Makes_aLL_More_ColorfuL.jpg" border="0" /></a> <div></div><div></div><div><strong>Currently listening to: Vicky Sianipar - Sesal Semu</strong></div><div><br />Belum lama ini saya merasa digampar sama sebuah kalimat yang diucapkan karakter paling cacat gaya dalam sejarah industri film televisi. Betty Suarez.<br />Kondisinya di situ adalah waktu Daniel Meade memaksa pacarnya yang terkena kanker untuk mengambil peluang pengobatan yang ada. Tujuan yang diharapkan tentu adalah perpanjangan umur, yang menurut Daniel sangat berguna buat mereka berdua. Sayangnya si pacar menolak.<br />Di situlah (seperti biasa) dia dihajar Betty Suarez dengan sebuah petuah bijaksana.<br /><em><strong>"Sometimes you can't get more. Sometimes you have to take what you get."<br /></strong></em><br />Dijembrengi kalimat itu awalnya saya protes.<br />Apa yang salah sih dengan berharap lebih?<br />Kenapa kita nggak boleh berharap mendapat sesuatu yang lebih?<br />Buat saya itu manusiawi. Banget.<br /><br />Prinsip itu juga yang saya pegang waktu saya memutuskan untuk memenangkan ego saya dalam urusan hati. Saya menantang diri saya untuk melangkah ke level baru dalam sebuah hubungan. Sayangnya, level yang menurut saya sangat sederhana ini ternyata tidak memberikan sensasi seperti yang diharapkan dari pihak sana.<br />Saat itulah saya sadar, bahwa memasuki batasan 'lebih' bisa menjadi suatu hal yang buruk.<br />Malah bisa merusak hal-hal manis yang sudah dirajut sebelumnya.</div><br /><div>Mungkin... mungkin lho ini... emang udah jadi kodrat manusia diciptakan dengan sifat serakah. <em>Wait.</em> Serakah nggak terlalu sedep didenger. Tidak-mudah-puas. <em>That's better</em>.<br />Kadang kita terlalu fokus dengan kondisi 'lebih' yang ideal, yang biasanya kita ciptakan sendiri. Sayangnya, kita tidak mempertimbangkan pihak lain yang kita libatkan dalam kondisi ideal ini.<br />Sebuah hal manis, yang ironisnya..egois.<br /><br />Lalu apa inti dari semua kacrut panjang yang tertulis di sini?<br />Kalo ditanya apakah ada batas dari sebuah kepuasan, jawabannya pasti enggak. Meminjam kata-kata Boris Dlugosch & Roisin Murphy : <em><strong>is it ever enough, when it's just enough?<br /></strong></em>Kita selalu akan mencoba untuk mencapai (minimal) satu level lebih tinggi dari apa yang kita punya sekarang. <em>But then again, are you ready for the consequences?</em></div><div><em><br /></em>Saya cuman berharap, kalo suatu hari penyesalan itu datang, mudah-mudahan wujudnya tidak berupa sosok Betty Suarez yang menghantui setiap mimpi kita dengan kata-katanya itu tadi.<br /><em>It's just scary.</em></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-92021476566550982602009-06-01T14:45:00.001+07:002009-06-08T14:51:24.338+07:00Kebiasaan Buruk<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZTaY44fLR-mtiGBA7fAB3vfywkEdqAr-5yZ_kgzNYpvOxrSt5CriKIAYKRtwPSUEqTSQe21gvNLxhMk7dnJqT8hyehLWIEVUFxjodW__aO_Sx-2uPOASX3j6ttpN0vVr_Xnfd0KY3Ejz-/s1600-h/heart_by_nauticalstar13.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5344861043253479682" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZTaY44fLR-mtiGBA7fAB3vfywkEdqAr-5yZ_kgzNYpvOxrSt5CriKIAYKRtwPSUEqTSQe21gvNLxhMk7dnJqT8hyehLWIEVUFxjodW__aO_Sx-2uPOASX3j6ttpN0vVr_Xnfd0KY3Ejz-/s400/heart_by_nauticalstar13.jpg" border="0" /></a> <div></div><div></div><div><strong>Currently listening to: Rod Steward - Have I told you lately that I love you</strong></div><br /><div></div><br /><div><em>Just wondering.</em></div><br /><div>Apa ya nama yang pas buat sebuah kebiasaan buruk mengintip-ngintip profil facebook atau friendster seseorang berstatus masa-lalu, hanya untuk kemudian merasa rindu, atau malah sakit hati melihat update-updatenya?</div><br /><div></div><div>Oh, dan kalo udah ketemu istilahnya, mungkin ada yang sekalian punya cara efektif untuk menghentikannya?</div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-56037853278573920352009-05-27T18:14:00.006+07:002009-05-27T18:37:57.547+07:00Kembali Bersinar...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0Mu56KJ0o9PG25tl_XlKTMY2rnkCtibQAeO1t5hNnh5I7BM53eQ-qdlPfKOeshDALeorwMf3EAKwBkOXHWs5qhHl6Z7lpyLLcxLL-Fh4BxrKY8Ol4LD8eRe-g-U4J85RuZnEAUNU5fhEm/s1600-h/angel.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5340463609347278242" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0Mu56KJ0o9PG25tl_XlKTMY2rnkCtibQAeO1t5hNnh5I7BM53eQ-qdlPfKOeshDALeorwMf3EAKwBkOXHWs5qhHl6Z7lpyLLcxLL-Fh4BxrKY8Ol4LD8eRe-g-U4J85RuZnEAUNU5fhEm/s400/angel.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><strong>Currently listening to: Josh Groban - You're loved (Don't Give Up)</strong><br /></div><br /><em>(Thank you for lifting me up everytime I fall. I owe You a Huge Smile, Uncle Stan)<br /></em><br /><br /><br />Love the sun for it warms your body;<br />Yet... love the rain for it cools your head.<br /><br />Love the light for it shows you the way;<br />Yet... love the darkness for it shows you the stars.<br /><br />Welcome happiness for it enlarges your heart;<br />Yet... endure sadness for it opens your soul.<br /><br />Be grateful for everything & enjoy every moment for none of it will happen the same way again...Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-85121874678809961512009-05-26T16:00:00.006+07:002009-05-26T16:21:00.390+07:00Kembali Berpijar<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoMKIhAGmISV9I4x7dg8561YTvoDQzfk5vBTaJs-HJ9vPuTxq1VAIFqNV9QZ2B8wzC9gKmX2GsELaAuDIi_ea6LXmkDp4Uci1FL8gvhycuBoVEXnSruGVF6XUnIGigwjG0XgvSg3_eypkL/s1600-h/Heart_Shaped_Rock_by_speedyfearless.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5340058676124540114" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoMKIhAGmISV9I4x7dg8561YTvoDQzfk5vBTaJs-HJ9vPuTxq1VAIFqNV9QZ2B8wzC9gKmX2GsELaAuDIi_ea6LXmkDp4Uci1FL8gvhycuBoVEXnSruGVF6XUnIGigwjG0XgvSg3_eypkL/s400/Heart_Shaped_Rock_by_speedyfearless.jpg" border="0" /></a> <div></div><div><strong>Currently listening to: Cold Play - Fix You</strong></div><div></div><div></div><br /><div>Matahari belum lagi menghampiri senja, tapi aku sudah menemukan jawabanku.</div><div>Aku menundukkan kepala. Berdoa. Pada Tuhan yang kupercaya di atas sana.</div><div>Perasaan hangat mengaliri tubuhku, menjalar dan mengusir beku serta buramku.</div><div><em></em></div><div><em></em></div><br /><div><em>You'll start to live and breath again, Rose...</em></div><div><em>Teruslah mencinta. </em></div><div><em>Selalu berikan yang terbaik!</em></div><div><em>Dan bila saatnya pergi...</em></div><div><em>ikhlaskan dengan rela hati karena cinta lain pasti akan menyapa lagi.</em></div><br /><div><em></em></div><div><em></em></div><div>Suatu saat kelak aku pasti akan bahagia,</div><div>saat cinta kembali menyapa.</div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-62939062548567193392009-05-25T22:51:00.004+07:002009-05-26T16:00:00.619+07:00Alkisah Lelaki Senja<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYKVRYC53SZHJ5jf9WT4ILbblxbRvGkAFgWdNxosHS1PtZaKu2R8EwEfoiTggUySRthnBL80SsVaxmQZcNzI-YDfN572GOJ_yedz8rtXINnIobTD3E29bkjeaNUFkTStj7eujp2vFS522q/s1600-h/If+I+could.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5340051361542586386" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 266px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYKVRYC53SZHJ5jf9WT4ILbblxbRvGkAFgWdNxosHS1PtZaKu2R8EwEfoiTggUySRthnBL80SsVaxmQZcNzI-YDfN572GOJ_yedz8rtXINnIobTD3E29bkjeaNUFkTStj7eujp2vFS522q/s400/If+I+could.jpg" border="0" /></a> <div></div><div><strong></strong></div><div><strong>Currently listening to: ST 12 - Saat Terakhir</strong></div><div></div><div></div><div><br /></div><div></div><div>Hatiku kembali melemah. </div><div>Aku lelah. </div><div>Lelah menangis, lelah marah, lelah merasa gundah dan terengah-engah. </div><div>Mengapa kenyataan hidup selalu menatapku dengan pongah? </div><div> </div><div> </div><div></div><div>Aku berharap dia bahagia.</div><div>Kebahagiaan yang ku tak tahu seperti apa bentuknya. </div><div></div><div></div><div> </div><div> </div><div>Sejak kapan kebahagiaan bisa berdiri di atas kesengsaraan orang lain? </div><div>Apakah kebahagiaan selalu berbanding lurus dengan penderitaan? </div><div>Apakah satu kebahagiaan berarti satu lelehan air mata di tempat lain?</div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div> </div><div> </div><div>Ternyata aku cuma manusia biasa yang tidak kebal dari rasa sakit hati dan kepedihan karena kehilangan.... </div><div> </div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-78898203517836399602009-05-22T00:31:00.001+07:002009-05-25T12:21:40.219+07:00Pengkhianat Cinta...?!?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQsml7B9CkwJ93L68XSvDM1BlU02abGZ0K9joSnO4nhGC32tQH4VNbaKXB-GxyzPZa7gqZ3zMGDDHMai2k5qprDJumkeuQvPyjK5kxgjLlUlaF3mK2MPwKDl15Oz53YfzUL6Y0ipoI2xGD/s1600-h/Anthem_For_The_Broken_Hearted_by_georginamary.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5339627040570196146" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 267px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQsml7B9CkwJ93L68XSvDM1BlU02abGZ0K9joSnO4nhGC32tQH4VNbaKXB-GxyzPZa7gqZ3zMGDDHMai2k5qprDJumkeuQvPyjK5kxgjLlUlaF3mK2MPwKDl15Oz53YfzUL6Y0ipoI2xGD/s400/Anthem_For_The_Broken_Hearted_by_georginamary.jpg" border="0" /></a> <div><strong></strong></div><div><strong>Currently listening to: Rihanna - Unfaithful<br /></strong></div><div>Apa artinya bila semua orang berlomba-lomba bilang mencintaimu,<br />tidak bisa hidup tanpamu,<br />ingin selalu bearda di dekatmu,<br />lantas... berlomba-lomba meninggalkanmu?<br /></div><div><strong>NUMB!</strong></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-31056042946525292082009-05-19T16:39:00.003+07:002009-05-26T16:32:55.328+07:00Rekap Edans!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcgf1JKe_INmKc_MeT6i7pVbWAlyPk5O07dDt3Mszx_iqgEO3OTmIcKMXQODFcWlreVQIx2uYQDkK_tX2fKYx-ouVZCW25ZfFY4TL_maHjYrO-mOiU7zB3hToIXM3-eyQubZ48pm-rVGHs/s1600-h/naughty.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5337484197899891122" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcgf1JKe_INmKc_MeT6i7pVbWAlyPk5O07dDt3Mszx_iqgEO3OTmIcKMXQODFcWlreVQIx2uYQDkK_tX2fKYx-ouVZCW25ZfFY4TL_maHjYrO-mOiU7zB3hToIXM3-eyQubZ48pm-rVGHs/s400/naughty.jpg" border="0" /></a> <strong>Currently listening to: Lady GaGa - Poker Face</strong> <p></p><p><strong></strong></p><br /><p>Judulnya adalah Edans. </p><p align="justify">Udah seminggu ini saya gak update blog karena saya emang lagi sibuk banget sama urusan pribadi juga kerjaan. Banyak sih yang mau ditulis. Banyak juga yang pengen diceritain. Tapi dalam waktu yang sangat sempit ini kayaknya gak mungkin nulis semuanya. Yang patut dicatat belakangan ini adalah…</p><br /><div>1. Saya kembali niat <em>apply</em> beasiswa tahun ini *insya Allah* setelah tiga tahun keinginan itu <strong>mati suri.</strong></div><br /><div>2. Lagi getol nyari kosan baru yang punya fasilitas: ukuran kamar at least 4x5m with inside bathroom, punya sirkulasi udara yang bagus (ada ventilasi, jendelanya besar plus pemandangan menarik), lingkungan yang mendukung <em>my social night life</em>, posisi dekat ama kantor saya. </div><br /><div>3. Baru menyadari kalau suaraku semakin hari semakin ngebass, jadi cucok banged nyanyiin lagu disko jadul such as Believe-nya Jeung Cher, All that she wants nya Ace of Base, Heaven-nya Bang Adams *lebayyyy*</div><br /><div>4. Mulai rajin makan (teratur banged, 5 x sehari) tapi males banged latihan yoga, ndut-an niyy.</div><br /><div>5. Senang dan bersyukur banget punya bos yang penyayang dan pengertian.</div><br /><div>6. Addicted to FB! It has becomes daily bread for my soul *alaahhh*</div><br /><div>7. Sempat sebal saat Denny Darko gagal jadi The Master dikalahkan oleh Limbad yang tampak butuh keramas itu.</div><br /><div>8. Lagi seru ngikutin gosip Manohara Pinot dan Pangeran Kelantan (dan kemaren salah ngomong: “Iya itu loh model yang katanya dikawinin sama Pangeran BEKANTAN”). Beda tipis namun fatal ternyata. Huhuhuhu…</div><br /><div>9. Lagi getol ngikutin American Idol di Star World dengan jagoan Adam Lambert. Minggu lalu bawain Cryin' nya Aerosmith, KEREN ABIZZZZ!!! <em>Luv ya, Adam... I dun give a damned even if you're a gay.</em></div><br /><div>10. <em>Yearning to have some place to call HOME.</em></div><br /><div><br />Yaaa kurang lebih gitu deh ceritanya. Nanti kalo ada yang saya inget, pasti dibagi lagi di sini. </div><div><em>Gud nite, folks!</em></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-3113270555848270612009-05-11T18:04:00.003+07:002009-05-26T16:35:18.048+07:00Can I walk with You?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBt2IMime-qenxH23A7XhsSmzAICGcgii56kxqzzLVW58wf00mlwfwUXKfaY3vkQWO1988_3yLIGcZywCZlSEXTJjsqN935yr4gcMCVwtQ3T5dHEXKNCHqGsgkmkK57WbIu5NB-JTfaUjp/s1600-h/Summerish_by_MojoFire.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5334521476181691378" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 267px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBt2IMime-qenxH23A7XhsSmzAICGcgii56kxqzzLVW58wf00mlwfwUXKfaY3vkQWO1988_3yLIGcZywCZlSEXTJjsqN935yr4gcMCVwtQ3T5dHEXKNCHqGsgkmkK57WbIu5NB-JTfaUjp/s400/Summerish_by_MojoFire.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><strong>Currently listening to: Craig David - Insomnia</strong><br /><br />I woke up this morning you were the first thing on my mind<br />I don't know where it came from<br />all I know is I need you in my life<br />You make me feel like I can be a better woman<br />If you just say you wanna take this friendship to another place<br /><br />Can I walk with you through your life?<br />Can I lay with you as your wife?<br />Can I be your friend till the end?<br />Can I walk with you through your life?<br /><br />You've got me wondering if you know that I am wondering about you<br />The feeling is so strong that I can't imagine you're not feeling it too<br />You've known me long enough to trust that I want what's best for you<br />If you wanna be happy then I am the one that you should give your heart to<br /><br />Can I walk with you through your life till the day that the world stops turning?<br />Can I walk with you till the day that my heart stops beating?<br />Can I walk with you through your life?<br />Can I walk with you till the end that the birds no longer take flight till the moon is underwater?<br /><br />This is the moment I've been waiting for<br />You are everything I've been looking for<br /><br />Can I walk with you...<br />Can I walk with you...<br />Can I walk with you as your wife....Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-36831500353132980692009-04-14T10:18:00.010+07:002009-04-14T16:38:23.174+07:00Berganti Hati<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgflfIUA74KRFUhQg_4u6Ih89N51sHbAU254gUZLKNiW9Vk9AehZHS80XbNMVlz7myxkR-8tjV6w46Aatxsc_-830J0aQNacmJMd5cj7-rXVWE9eQlr_3tsSKtjXvnqm8XTi3GLKIkZrJ-i/s1600-h/heart_by_r0m.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5324461072369142434" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 336px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgflfIUA74KRFUhQg_4u6Ih89N51sHbAU254gUZLKNiW9Vk9AehZHS80XbNMVlz7myxkR-8tjV6w46Aatxsc_-830J0aQNacmJMd5cj7-rXVWE9eQlr_3tsSKtjXvnqm8XTi3GLKIkZrJ-i/s400/heart_by_r0m.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div></div><strong>Currently listening to: Heritage - Undivided Heart</strong><br /><br /><br /><div></div><div>Aku bersuka cita akan keindahan belas kasih-Mu dan ketulusan cinta-Mu. Engkau mencariku ketika aku sekarat dalam dosaku dan membawaku ke dalam rumah-Mu. Engkau telah menutupi ketelanjanganku dengan pakaian dan membersihkan setiap kotoran darah dan dosa dalam hidupku.</div><br /><div></div><div>Terima kasih atas pengampunan, belas kasih, dan perhatian lembut-Mu. Ampuni aku karena telah mengambil kecantikan yang telah Engkau berikan padaku dan mencari penguatan dari putra-putra dunia ketika aku sudah mempunya sebuah pernjanjian akan kemegahan. Aku meninggalkan kekasihku yang lain dan hanya mengejar-Mu.</div><br /><div></div><div>Terima kasih karena mencintaiku dalam kelemahanku daripada dalam kecantikanku. </div><div>Aku adalah si Cinderella yang telah Engkau keluarkan dari abu. </div><div>Aku memberikan hatiku pada-Mu, karena hanya Engkau Pangeran sejatiku satu-satunya.</div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-66982913916753711102009-03-30T11:48:00.004+07:002009-03-30T16:24:00.883+07:00Fall in love again...again...and again...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHMPJx02wrX1KyXahrAsRiQ9mOuRcVGkbUHoKGYYIXjD7BmTOZSAwmABMIglGAmfEX3lPt1ej-L4pJVkNwk3c3ap7mMBeQVLSrX6B5bmbBRTQGz5aVZcGd1-GSWpxdk7klXMMvo2TXcQoz/s1600-h/Mi_piace_cappuccino_by_iNeedChemicalX.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5318907907325292498" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 267px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHMPJx02wrX1KyXahrAsRiQ9mOuRcVGkbUHoKGYYIXjD7BmTOZSAwmABMIglGAmfEX3lPt1ej-L4pJVkNwk3c3ap7mMBeQVLSrX6B5bmbBRTQGz5aVZcGd1-GSWpxdk7klXMMvo2TXcQoz/s400/Mi_piace_cappuccino_by_iNeedChemicalX.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div></div><strong>Currently listening to: Lauren Wood - Fallen </strong><br /><strong><br /></strong><div></div><div></div><div>even if i want to</div><div>it won't be happened</div><div>even if i tried to</div><div>it won't be happened</div><div></div><div>no matter how hard i tried</div><div>it just can not make it</div><div></div><br /><div>but...</div><br /><div>if i just put my trust in Him</div><div>no matter how hard it is</div><div>it is possible</div><div>and don't know how</div><div>it was just happened</div><div>and it will be happens</div><br /><div></div><div>thus why i love being the daughter of HIM</div><br /><div>so in love with You, Lord...</div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-3833773768979300362009-03-25T07:55:00.006+07:002009-03-30T17:22:24.123+07:00The tracks of my tears<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiPmraI22OCTessYhZitZ6NGT-7lWjUAiGCtwl-JhxAyuQwp6EVT8D25ouMw-fgLdc2iWNwVs3fmBynG7nZFAr2An-YUyXTXwq98_nhY5a9QkcZLIAbrnM_H87TTqS4JeCrbD0H2hfkOpxY/s1600-h/heart+drop.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5318919807298564418" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiPmraI22OCTessYhZitZ6NGT-7lWjUAiGCtwl-JhxAyuQwp6EVT8D25ouMw-fgLdc2iWNwVs3fmBynG7nZFAr2An-YUyXTXwq98_nhY5a9QkcZLIAbrnM_H87TTqS4JeCrbD0H2hfkOpxY/s400/heart+drop.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div></div><div>People say I'm the life of the party</div><div>Because I tell a joke or two</div><div>Although I might be laughing loud and hearty</div><div>Deep inside I'm blue </div><div><br />Since you left me if you see me with another man</div><div>Seeming like I'm having fun</div><div>Although he may be cute</div><div>He's just a substitute</div><div>Because you're the permanent one</div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div><br /><div></div>Outside I'm masquerading</div><div>Inside my hope is fading</div><div>Just a clown </div><div>Since you put me down</div><div><br />My smile is my make up</div><div>I wear since my break up with you..</div><div></div><div></div><div></div><br /><div>So take a good look at my face</div><div>You'll see my smile looks out of place</div><div>If you look closer, it's easy to trace</div><div>The tracks of my tears</div><div> </div><div> </div><div></div><div>I need you</div><div>Need you.....</div><div></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-82188617125440312772009-03-19T16:20:00.007+07:002009-05-26T16:46:42.315+07:00God provides in His time<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg3F3ttA3CHz3n-M35M902U5slAa4144K2BYMuLAjhhVu2CX0mZoElWbJRDLKRt1-6BgCvKa5nITcuODQOpOq6uaNSqrt6u6mtFb1wcvIai2eloNAL1O1YYnhk2Gpx65sCaTHEPezyrVYSS/s1600-h/i_believe_in__by_m0thyyku.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5314831424381689346" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg3F3ttA3CHz3n-M35M902U5slAa4144K2BYMuLAjhhVu2CX0mZoElWbJRDLKRt1-6BgCvKa5nITcuODQOpOq6uaNSqrt6u6mtFb1wcvIai2eloNAL1O1YYnhk2Gpx65sCaTHEPezyrVYSS/s400/i_believe_in__by_m0thyyku.jpg" border="0" /></a> <p><strong>Currently listening to: Nikita - JanjiMu seperti fajar pagi hari<br /></p></strong><strong></strong><br />Dear Heavenly Father,<br /><br /><p>You are so great, that I have never ever imagined what You have prepared for me...<br /></p><p>Even though i knew all the theory that You are a good God,<br />yet i still amazed on Your beautiful works in my life...<br /></p><p>I do love You Lord, teach me to love You more....<br /></p><p>Your daughter,<br />Rose</p>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-37616867016828586012009-03-18T17:44:00.003+07:002009-05-26T16:53:14.437+07:00the GREATEST journey<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhetS0WwYPC4Pnf6MNQARAlTWIGqSNz8mou6yV9zG87gK5n0CqiKPUh1garl3WDVL9cnEkobalvGTnK0Cqx5FIh3JZ4Ig6CQCvTQL5bsQLpK10Ru1gVQ7_tntdEqJqQMXFZAqp04EkTo4UA/s1600-h/wild_horses_by_pakpao.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5314480743561454546" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhetS0WwYPC4Pnf6MNQARAlTWIGqSNz8mou6yV9zG87gK5n0CqiKPUh1garl3WDVL9cnEkobalvGTnK0Cqx5FIh3JZ4Ig6CQCvTQL5bsQLpK10Ru1gVQ7_tntdEqJqQMXFZAqp04EkTo4UA/s400/wild_horses_by_pakpao.jpg" border="0" /></a> <div align="justify"><strong></strong></div><br /><div align="justify"><strong>Currently listening to: Leona Lewis - Better in time</strong></div><br /><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">After being HIATUS for the past two weeks, here I am back again to pour all the thoughts that had been stucked on my mind and share some analysis behind my last tragic love life (sigh) </div><br /><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">Do you know what.... </div><div align="justify">Sometimes the greatest journey is the distance betwen two people...???? </div><div align="justify">You may disagree with me, but.... Have you ever loved someone and at the same time feel that the only thing you could do is to bring out the worse in him whenever the distance is covered only a step, if not half step?<br /><br />You’re miffedly torn and washed away, almost out of descent air to breathe due to drowning, with the spate of love and guilt – over and over and over again.<br /><br />You only wanted the best for him, but all things come out as if the only thing you could do to him is only the worse. The worse of the worse one can imagine or actually do.<br /><br />Then you’re like dense, thick, clueless, stupid, unintelligent, dim, slow, brainless, dim-witted, obtuse, almost an idiot… Who’s fault was that? Mine? The brain, the heart and the soul said it’s my fault. Solely my fault.<br /><br />You love him, but no matter whatever you do, you’re only hurting him, damaging him to a point of inhumane existence. Hatred silently grew in his heart and yours.<br /><br />What to do?<br />What to do when anything you do – whether distancing away, staying away, getting closer, doing everything you could, making things better – results only in bitterness?<br />What to do when doing nothing and doing everything means shit?<br /><br />You feel like crying, but you feel such patheticness is intolerable for you to know exactly (to a certain degree) who and/or what you are. You know how strong and powerful you are, but at the same time such obliviousness is unbearably present, realistically in attendance.<br /><br />Five people, all in their own kind of ways and languages, said that I am CREDULOUS when it comes to the object of my affection. Bizarrely, I bumped into that particular term a while before all 5 friends made those comments.<br /><br />credulous /"<br /><a href="mailto:krEdjUl@s/">krEdjUl@s/</a> · adj. having or showing too great a readiness to believe things. </div><br /><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">What does it mean? I wish I could fly – far up and away, alone but not lonely. My non-presence might be the best for everyone and everything. </div><div align="justify"></div><br /><div align="justify">I want to fly. Up and away. </div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-50493177528597692342009-03-06T11:52:00.004+07:002009-03-10T17:37:41.389+07:00MERANA FM<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEieRBMzaVVyOh8lUYemLbm3CdvFDEttFwaRYnIcSQbhK-_Dltcd6A4XOR4Qzvn3ZFdLBS-PWUxMt00joLs0EajHH51LycUpM4qLXp1qRuKJ42thDZMoV_1SP7YKTZQzfH8Lt2zTJ8358oWh/s1600-h/merindu.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5311504193787586626" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEieRBMzaVVyOh8lUYemLbm3CdvFDEttFwaRYnIcSQbhK-_Dltcd6A4XOR4Qzvn3ZFdLBS-PWUxMt00joLs0EajHH51LycUpM4qLXp1qRuKJ42thDZMoV_1SP7YKTZQzfH8Lt2zTJ8358oWh/s400/merindu.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>This is Merana FM Banda. Dengan motto hidup <strong>Tiada Tangis Tanpa Air Mata</strong>. </div><br /><div>Masih bersama saya, Rose Winds, yang terus nemenin kamu-kamu yg sedih, patah hati, pesimis, galau, gundah gulana, kelam, putus asa, tertindas dan selalu merasa hidup ini tidak adil. </div><br /><div></div><div>Btw, berikut lagu-lagu yang merajai 10 anak tangga Merana FM minggu ini.</div><div></div><br /><div>10. Cinta ini membunuhku by d'Masiv<br />09. Give me one reason by Tracy Chapman<br />08. Jadikan aku yang ke-dua by Astrid<br />07. If I ain't got you by Alicia Keys<br />06. Hapus aku by Nidji<br />05. Be without you by Mary J Blide<br />04. Cinta di ujung jalan by Agnes Monica<br />03. Soulmate by Natasha Beddingfield </div><div>02. Menunggu by Ridho Rhoma<br /><br />dan yang menjadi jawara minggu ini adalah............[<strong>trumpeth sounds</strong>]</div><div><br /><strong>01. Disappear by Beyonce Knowles. </strong><br /><br />Selamat ya Jeung Bey...lagunya sudah memanjakan kesedihan para pendengar Merana FM sepanjang minggu ini.</div><div><br />That's all for now... Rose Winds pamit undur diri! Ciao....</div><div></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-89462870935391041852009-03-03T10:29:00.005+07:002009-03-03T13:46:26.000+07:00h O p E<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjfbFGbES1kbOgPGDribK8LPa9T4tt8JrEjc8GbVJ9t0KaKG-5cC0BMzzcQ9FRkqiXcq-U3dVrZi_pBT4-ScdqI-eMQrRQqBLF4LiPLy6daHvMy5k1Lt24MCJ5RQKPw7x9x4Nlp9pz1tUOz/s1600-h/In_Curls_by_shagagraf.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5308848680778972034" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjfbFGbES1kbOgPGDribK8LPa9T4tt8JrEjc8GbVJ9t0KaKG-5cC0BMzzcQ9FRkqiXcq-U3dVrZi_pBT4-ScdqI-eMQrRQqBLF4LiPLy6daHvMy5k1Lt24MCJ5RQKPw7x9x4Nlp9pz1tUOz/s400/In_Curls_by_shagagraf.jpg" border="0" /></a> <div></div><div></div><div><strong>Currently listening to: Barry White - My First, My Last, My Everything</strong></div><div></div><br /><br /><div>lunglai....</div><div>terpekur di sudut kamar</div><div>membeku....</div><div>menunggu Tuhan datang memeluk</div><br /><div></div><div>dadaku tak bisa berhenti berdentum</div><div>tangan kiriku mulai terasa perih</div><div>mataku panas tak kuasa terbuka</div><div>namun tak ada tangis</div><div>tidak....</div><div>tidak boleh ada tangis!</div><div>tidak boleh ada tangis untuknya!!</div><div></div><br /><div>mencoba mengerti</div><div>mencoba memahami apa yang terjadi</div><div>mencoba mengerti</div><div>mencoba memahami apa yang terjadi</div><br /><div>Tuhan beri aku kekuatan</div><div>Tuhan beri aku kekuatan</div><div>Tuhan beri aku kekuatan</div><div>...............................</div><div>.................</div><br /><div></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-19752425547109717282009-03-02T15:26:00.008+07:002009-03-02T15:50:26.702+07:00Survive ?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLv_w73NrHpWyMXYeCBupXLoM6yyTRwnigie_PuyqsxZ0aAHat1BsGtr5jDAm6KESBm8m2_lX4eganFO89IE_5iBinq_hmz7InmdqOLV78YMvaa_X-3st8przKmp0w2I9LQ4thvR6Hvqnf/s1600-h/broken_hearted_blues_by_pakpao.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5308509771215747298" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLv_w73NrHpWyMXYeCBupXLoM6yyTRwnigie_PuyqsxZ0aAHat1BsGtr5jDAm6KESBm8m2_lX4eganFO89IE_5iBinq_hmz7InmdqOLV78YMvaa_X-3st8przKmp0w2I9LQ4thvR6Hvqnf/s400/broken_hearted_blues_by_pakpao.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><div></div><div><strong>Currently listening to: Macy Gray - I Try</strong></div><div><strong></strong></div><br /><div>Apakah hatiku masih bernyawa? </div><div>Karena berulangkali ia meronta.</div><div>Tak ingin tenggelam oleh emosi manusia yang mencabik, mencengkeram, </div><div>dan menyayat di tiap sudutnya.</div><br /><div></div><div>Meronta hingga darah penuh sesak di dadaku, </div><div>hingga mulutku kelu muntahkan rasa, </div><div>hingga lebur ia oleh letih,</div><div>hingga akhirnya tak ada lagi,</div><div>hingga akhirnya....</div><div>k o s o n g?</div><div> </div></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7241801581627016537.post-77299506179151672162009-03-01T23:30:00.002+07:002009-03-02T15:24:40.926+07:00Me Ire<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9qGNNhh36PLh8BUdmk6LGdg9ByNegwlF4cTFQWkJtkg39NW0fEmnZjzg4cxKoT80tVi-wY3dXmOCI5MmsLps4cY8z2-w5vB32L9t9VUv8zXLOgm_G7wxLkRg9jZ9KyD3ccyl1cXxcbsWY/s1600-h/Learning_to_Fly___version_2_by_abart.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5308502218698560578" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 290px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9qGNNhh36PLh8BUdmk6LGdg9ByNegwlF4cTFQWkJtkg39NW0fEmnZjzg4cxKoT80tVi-wY3dXmOCI5MmsLps4cY8z2-w5vB32L9t9VUv8zXLOgm_G7wxLkRg9jZ9KyD3ccyl1cXxcbsWY/s400/Learning_to_Fly___version_2_by_abart.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><div><strong>Currently listening to: the Corrs - the Hardest Day</strong></div><div><strong></strong></div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div> </div><div> </div><div>Siapakah yang paling lucu di dunia ini? </div><div>Tuhan, tentu saja. </div><div>DIA Maha Lucu dan Maha Pemberi Kejutan.</div><br /><div>Padahal aku sering berkata kepadanya, </div><div>"Duh Gusti... <em>No more surprises, please</em>..." </div><div></div><div> </div><div>Tapi Tuhan adalah Tuhan.</div><div>Apa yang aku inginkan, dia berikan. </div><div>Lantas saat aku sedang menikmati pemberiannya *seeeettt* seketika Dia ambil lagi. </div><div><em>Just like that!</em> *menghela nafas panjang, mengusap airmata, lalu tertawa*</div><div></div><br /><div>Andai Tuhan berwujud manusia dan ada di depanku saat ini, </div><div>aku akan menghampirinya, menepuk pundakNya dan berkata, </div><div>"<em>Ma Man... You really got me this time</em>" </div><div>*menyeka darah, lalu tertawa lagi* </div><div></div></div>Rose Windshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07627631597537403935noreply@blogger.com1