IF I WERE A BOY

Satu lagi hari yang melelahkan.
Dan matahari, lagi-lagi sudah lama tertidur di peraduannya saat aku pulang ke peraduanku (baca: kotak sabun)

Tak akan ada yang mengerti betapa sukarnya ini.
Betapa beratnya lepas dari penjara yang kaucinta sekaligus kau rutuk.
Betapa sulitnya menikmati angkasa luas tak terperi tanpa merasa ngeri,
setelah sekian lama engkau tersekap dalam kotak sabun di mana engkau terantuk setiap kali bergerak.

Andai aku ini Pria...
Hidup akan sangat mudah di penjara ini
Tidak perlu bersembunyi di toilet, hanya untuk menikmati sensasi sebatang rokok
Tidak perlu mengendap-endap masuk ke kotak sabunku meskipun jarum jam sudah menunjukkan pukul 1 pagi.

Tapi aku bukan Pria....

Alunan suara Beyonce memecah keheningan malam di kotak sabunku.......

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick with who I wanted
And I'd never get confonted for it
Cause they’d stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would just turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they think that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home